Posts tagged ‘pain’

September 8, 2011

(H)er (O)ld (P)ain (E)nriches

by Dev B

(Poem is about a young girl who got married at very young age, went through domestic violence. She came out of marriage, achieved everything a human can dream of. She’s now a winner for the world which stops her to show her wounds and express her pains. She is HOPE for others but Her Old Pain Enriches due to this.)

They lit her
They tore her
They broke her
Her worst pain

She cried
She tried
And She failed
Her unbearable pain

She followed sun
She did the ton
And she won
Her retrograde pain

She wonders
She forgets
And she forgives
Her lost pain

A fay won the fray
Sorrows go away
But wounds still stay
Her irrecoverable pain

She looks bright
She laughs in light
And she cries in night
Her perplexed pain

She lies with pain
She lives with pain
And she dies with pain
Her untold pain

– Dev B

Duffer makes good people Suffer.

September 7, 2011

R.I.P. : (R)est (I)n (P)ain

by Dev B

He liked your every presence
His eyes had sweet silence
He had calm utterance
Why he lost his appearance?

He acted for you as clown
His spirit is now blown
His soul is now drown
Why his heart is thrown?

He never gave you blame
He himself took claim
He is now alone & lame
Why he is loser in this game?

He liked you as divine music.
He was good in love’s basic
He had believe in love’s magic
Why his end is so tragic?

He was with you in love’s wain.
You now take his name as vain
This happened with him again
Why he is left to Rest-In-Pain?

– Dev B

Replacing HE with SHE will make this poem more appealing but matter of the fact is …

Emotions & Pains don’t discriminate on gender.

Man (too) cry  without  (or with) tears in his eye.

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August 31, 2011

An Ineffable Experience

by Dev B


I am going through one of the toughest period of my life. It is impacting me physically and emotionally but yesterday was just a normal day. Usual my day was good and evening…. There is some problem between evening and my life. I born in evening and seems evening has a problem with my birth. I was feeling low due to things happened in evening. I reached home around 6PM today.

After that, I started things, which I do normally, aimless palavering with a close friend on net. Chat started well but it turned into a hot discussion. It is all because of my fear to loose good people. Fear is man-killer. Fear forced me to accept that I already lost in my life. Fear is the little death that brings total obliteration.

The Experience

I closed my laptop and went to sleep at 1 AM. I felt I closed lots of things with laptop. I was thinking about lots of things, specially things which happened recently. I felt a sweet pain near upper chest around 1:30 AM. My mind and heart ignored it, both were busy with something else but it didn’t helped. I couldn’t find comfort with sleeping position so decided to go out from my bed and walk in fresh air. I was in my balcony around 2:30 AM. I felt comfort in fresh rainy wind but this comfort lasted in moments. In the back of my mind and heart, I was thinking about chat and my life. I felt sweating on my face and my arms were feeling very tired and achy. I just took coldest water bottle out of the fridge. I was not thirsty but completed full bottle in one breath. I rushed back to my bed at 2:47 AM and intentionally didn’t switch off lights.

A drop of water came out from my left eye and went down from my face. Many other drops followed same path. Right eye  was not tearing but there was moist in it. I was staring at fan. To comfort myself, I closed my eyes and suddenly from nowhere thousands of faces appeared,  most of them were unknown but felt they must had crossed my life in some way. They were unknown but known faces. I was trying recognized them. I opened my eyes but faces were still there. I was able recognize at least five of them, they were not happy.

I can’t tell you what really it was but I felt someone squeezed my heart and squeezed  till it became weightless. It was unbearable pain. I could feel unusual movement of my  of squeezed and empty heart, It was moving all around and randomly in my left lung. I pressed my heart but my hand was not favoring me. My heartbeat was very slow and it was going down and down. I was not able to move my limbs. It was pin drop silence but I was not able to hear my heart beat. Time was something around 4 AM in clock (I am not sure about right time).

One by one all faces were vanishing. Suddenly everything got painted in black. Don’t know when I stopped feeling pain. All I can see is black and All I can feel is blank. It was heavenly feeling.

I don’t remember what happened after this feeling.


Alarm, which I set on last Sunday night, rang at 6:30 AM. I can still feel a pain near my heart. I closed my eyes and woke up at 8 AM, that too,  because of  a call. I decided to not to go office. I went to temple at 10:00 AM and left temple at 12:30PM.
Now I back to my laptop (my life), with an ineffable experience. I did first thing after coming back is, pinged my friend and said sorry.

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August 27, 2011

He left me speechless

by Dev B

He is fighting to make uncertain certain.
He gets simmer but sparkles delighter.
He confined under green curtain.
His eyes says pain to live lifeless.
I met him & he left me speechless.

He is reading reports; to say it’s in vain.
He is the lightweight fighter.
He has to win a great war to sustain.
His spirit is still fearless.
I met him & he left me speechless.

He is going through unbearable pain.
He still punctuates laughter,
Not once, not twice but again & again.
His smile is real and stainless.
I met him & he left me speechless.

-Dev B

I met my good friend who is a cancer patient. He taught me “how to live lifeless“.
God bless you and get well soon.